I HATE MYSELF!!!

ARGH!!!DAMN IT!!Y??Y CAN"T I CNTRL MYSELF!!Y I CAN"T JUST STOP TAKING THAT STUPID STICK!!!yyyy!!!!I CAN'T LET THIS THING HAPPEN AGAIN..YA ALLAH!!!!BERI LA AKU KEKUATAN AGAR AKU DPT TEMPUR COBAAN INI!!!YA ALLAH BUKA KAN LAH PINTU MAAF NYE YA ALLAH!!!NOW SHE IS REALY REALLY REALLY REALLY MAD AT ME!!!!ARHGG!!!THIS CAN'T B HAPPENING!!!!!WAT AM I GOING TO DO TO GAIN HER TRUST BACK TOWARDS ME ARGH!!!CAN SOMEBODY HELP ME!!!GIVE ME AN IDEA OR SMTH!!ARGH!!!EVEN IF IT IS LIFE THREATENING I WILL STILL ACCEPT... I'M AM GOING TO REALY TRY TO GAIN MY HER TRUST BACK!!BUT HOW!!!ARGH!!!I'M TOTALLY SPEECHLESS....I DON;T WANT TO PROMISE HER THAT I'M NT GONNA DO IT AGAIN OR WATEVER!!SHE WILL NT ACCEPT THAT!!!OBVIOUSLY!!ONE TIME I HAD BREAK MY PROMISE N LOSE HER TRUST!!ITS GONNA B HARD TO GAIN BACK THE TRUST!!!!REALLY REALLY!!!HARD!!!!FORGIVE N FORGET!!!EVERYONE CAN DOES THAT..BUT...TRUST IS NT THAT EASY TO GAIN!!!!ARGH!!NVM...JUST GONNA END HERE..!!! N START THINKING!!!ARHH!!!! TIME 7.32PM